Jealousy

Jealousy happened,

when you can't get the things that you want or what you wish.

Kinda sad and disappointed when it happened.

And after it happened,

the jealousy will appear.

It happened many times.

But this year,

I don't know why my jealousy gets stronger.

It's just like I'm back to a kid.

A bad-ass kiddo,

red-eyed to everything.

I know it is kinda weird when I said this.

But I really do jealous with him, Mr. I.

Jealous what he gets.

Is it because his personality is good?

He is friendly enough?

So the god can let him get what is unexpected.

I mean like his friend giving him a special surprise which I really want to.

I admit that,

for this year,

I really want it to be special because I'm having my 2nd round for snake zodiac.

When I was kid,

I just wanna having special event for my 18, 21 and 24.

But it's not happening as I wish.

For my 18,

celebrating it by myself.

I remembered that day is Sunday.

The only day that the college let you go out.

Went to cyber, get some sundries and went back to college.

For my 21,

celebrating with my family and relatives.

Had some pizzas in Pizza Hut, City Mall.

No special.

And for my 24,

which happened this year,

actually I kinda like it.

 my day with my BMAD family.

Although it's just part of them - Dhanee, Ira, Jessen, Rochelle and Yik,

but I will appreciate what I got.

The present and birthday cake that prepared for me,

are very meaningful.

At least, I got the wishes from them.

And truthfully,

I feel like it's so "quiet" for my day.

I mean like,

there were only a lil friends from my Facebook give me wishes.

It's really a different day compare with the previous one.

Before the day happened,

I was been told that the day should be a very special day,

because it's the day where we start to exist in this world.

Thanks to Ira words,

I keep it waiting before my 24 comes.

Truthfully,

I was not hoping much because everyone was busy with thier studies, performance and personal stuff.

But, they still giving me a party, 

although it's a fail surprise party.

But it's really so memorable.

Oh yeah.

Actually I do had my special 21.

Special thanks to my F.A.M.I.L.Y,

which I really can't forget it for my whole life.

Although it's just a belated,

but it's still the BEST in my life!!!